You Always On My Mind

下雨天了怎么办我好想你 我不敢打给你我找不到原因
为什么失眠的声音变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺
谁和我一样等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不出哪些差别
结局那还能多明显
别说你会难过别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

Sudden think of this song.. you told mi tat .. lycris is almost talking bout you.. u said u r so lonely.. i m too.. dunno y.. this few days i did alot wrong things..bt dunno how to tell u.. reali miss ya so much.. duno u gt da same feeling wit mi anot.. long time never hear ur voice.. last time i always tink out alot jokes to make u smile.. duno y.. make u smile.. i felt like.. atlease in da 1 or 2 minutes u r smiling because of mi.. now.. i just can take u r in exam as a reason not to disturb u.. i duno y.. my heart is reali afraid tat i m disturbing u.. i duno ur heart whether stil wil same like mine.. waiting for some day coming.. bt i realy waiting hard.. pray hard.. i pray tat day coming.. i pray tat u r safe and happy always.. i tried not to blame myself when u r no mud or sad.. bt i felt tat.. when u r not happy.. i can felt da pain inside my heart... when is my day coming? next week? next month? or next year? when i facing this unknown question.. i wont care.. i just wil wait ya.. til tat day we r holding our hand again... and i wil never let ya go... take care my dear...

Why cant i just let ya go ?

We long time never talk in phone.. less sms .. i not dare to sms you.. because that day.. u told mi that.. u also not sure whether yourself alraedy give up on me anot.. even u said u just not sure.. i duno why.. felt tat my heart was blooding.. i can feel da pain.. feel da hurt.. i scare to message you.. everyday day holding my phone.. wana to sms or call you.. bt duno y i cant do it.. duno my guess correct anot.. u sure think tat.. i give up on u le.. bt i never.. cause.. my promised on ya.. will alaways available..uur exam coming soon.. i stil remember last tim we together.. once reached exam month u sure 180'c change de.. bt because of mi.. u changed alot.. i can feel it.. thanks er..dun wan think back last time le.. later u cant concentrade on ur exam.. i stupid.. not good in studies.. if u meet up any question i also duno how help or answer u.. i felt useless.. sorry er.. nowadays work.. even though i noe SPM is coming on next month. duno because of wat. reali not in mud to studu bout it.. long time never sent u those long message.. maybe old le ba.. bt this 2 weeks.. really quite stressed.. be4 tat i called u in midnight.. i heard yr blur voice.. even just for some or few minutes.. bt in da moment ..i reali can smile and talk like normal.. duno y.. i know tat i can do whatever just for you.. dun tell mi u r not worth to make mi do so.. ITS WORTH.. just because its you...if u felt stress or tired.. take more rest.. okie?

离开之后，我想你不要忘记一件事：想念我的时候，不要忘记我也在想念你...

想念是紫色的，爱情是白色的，你是红色的，我是蓝色的，生活是彩色的，没有你世界是灰色的。。。

Here We Come.. Ghost Condo ( xxxxxx)

ya.. u r corect.. u didnt c it wrongly.. its true.. its Tanglung.. 8 of us after dinner.. we went to 2 ghost place.. 1st 1 is nearby zoo negara de.. bt sadly da road has been blocked by some dropped tree..then we went to da GHOST CONDO haha we all force 2 of them carry this type of tanglung go in.. sumore is RED and GREEN in colour ,syok right ?=.= both of them who carry da things was like.. OMG keep come out alot !!@#@$#^& from their mouth.. few of us like.. even stepped inside da condo.. mouth stil laughing.. cause i bet if u saw their face and their reaction.. u also cant control urself.. haha.. sorry lar fren.. be4 we come few of us gt small meeting die die also dun wan carry de =X cause in legend.. they said ghost wil folow something like umbrella or tanglung.. we reali not mean to make them kena or die hor.. its just an Entertainment for them ..haha 1 more things more weird.. we ate Mooncake tat we brought in earlier =.= they said wana share share with "kawan" bt we also just felt scary bt saw nth.. bt da 1 who carry red tanglung de after visit then str8 go back.. and friends said he told them he saw something around there ~ cold ........bt ...in front of gangs.. i cant reali show my feelings.. i miss ya alot. reali alot.. sorry er.. i noe u sure dun like i say sorry to u de.. bt beside this words to apologize .. i cant think anyway to make ya forgive mi.. is reali suffering all da way..if u r angry..i duno wat else i can do...just can tel u.. i reali do miss ya so much...

Mooncake Festival

Today off.. dated friend go car4 roller.. its quite fun.. bt less ppl went there.. then night went dinner wit friends at Kuchai Lama 100'c Steamboat shop eat.. its dam funny when we wana to clear our bill.. we gt total bout 9 ppls.. each of us niaa pay rm 25.. then its like.. 8 of us using rm 50 to pay.. just 1 ppl .. he reali dare to take out his money in front of da waitress.. he took out 25x rm 1 =.= .. we all looking at him ..its was like.. paiseh sia.. da waitress look at him...we shout until very loud until whole shop looking at him " bang ,sini kedai makan bukan Sekolah Canteen..".. is like.. he dam fish ... funny when enjoy food or out wit pass year form 5 students..

Love

Slept 2 hours after 42 hours work and do my own stuff.. really very tired and reali wana take a long sleep.. bt duno why.. stil cannot get into sleep.. maybe .reali too u..reali miss last time.. we eat together.. walk together.. wait together..like all things also nid you wit mi oni can be perfect.. without u..its meaningless..reali miss our story alot... bt seems like its a mission impossible for us right now to be back like tat.. bt i wil wait for ya... i belive We Belongs Together...
有一种感觉，它没有开端也没有结果，但它却时时刻刻占据我，那就是想你的感觉......

I miss that moment when you are saying you are loving me too....

"Erm..Hope tat u noe u won b change in My heart de..won even " - message from ya

i really know de.. a lot things.. even we never say it out or what.. i belief tat we still know what our heart thinking de.. i really waiting and waiting.. even though u r holding his hand while we both waiting tat day coming.. but i m alone.. i understand de ..sorry er.. dunno y .. maybe start work already.. tempe very easy get angry then simply say things.. really sorry de.. tat day sent u a very very long de message.. tat day i think tat i can 100% let ya go and i wont ever go and disturb u both.. bt after half an hour i closed my eye .. all is u coming out from my mind.. i really cant stop myself thinking of u even for 1 second.. i cant stand and message u.. sorry er.. i maked u cry again.. but i know tat.. if got tat day .. i will try myself to make u happy de.. trust mi.. if we gt chance again.. i will never make ya cry.. will never let u leave mi again.. i will give u what i got .. my things .. my life.. my soul are belongs to you ..remember.. you will always on my mind... <-Love TzY->

-oNLy.L0vE.tZy.4eVeR

A Message from 016xxxx838

"My life cant pass without u..how u can so true 2 mi..x 1 included my parent wil treat mi so good as u.. Haix u r... must eat dinner "
Saw this message.. in my heart.. i dunno what respond should i give u..how can i treat u so true? because i loving ya.. i care u..i worry bout u.. i miss ya.. i thinking of u.. everything also about u.. i mean it.. is everything.. no matter wat i doing .. can say so 1 day 24 hours also gt u in my mind in my heart..i also asking and trying to answer your question " y i loving ya so deep ?" i duno.. i just know my mind full of u.. i loving ya.. i know i keep repeating saying i loving ya.. just because beside using this 3 words to explain how was my heart looks like... i cant think anything to explain or to show how much i need ya..

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到 你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念 你走以後

离开 难道真的是解脱
难道 真的要事过境迁了以後才懂

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥挥手

如果有一天 我们有缘再见
你会不会想起 说过的永远

A love Letter Just for u - Fishy Tng a.k.a Joey

i thought it would be best writing a letter instead of contacting you any other way so you can still have your space.
i am so sorry for ever hurting you, i feel so guilty for making you feel so bad. i know you said it wasn't my fault but i know that i have pushed you away by telling you how you feel by telling you you dont care about me and that your not bothered. i know this was never true and that you had nothing but love for me.
this time apart has made me realize what i need to change about myself.
if i had another chance i know that i would never say anything to hurt you again.
i thought at da first breaking-up i though i can fully let ya go but i cant just give up like that when i know there is so much love between us.Ya.. wit wat you said.. u r just a normal girl..nothing special..bt in my heart.. u r special and cant be replaceable ,i just want to make it right and if after reading this u r stil mad or angry at mi..i reali duno wat should i do..i love you with all my heart and soul, just the way u r, i wil wait ya til the day i die..trust mi once ..as wat u said be4.. maybe u wil never trust mi anymore.. bt atlease put 1% trust on mi can? i hope u can trust mi just da 1% atlease .. i love you.."

our love.. just like this video.. our lvoe wil never end.. in our heart.. should know clearly then anyone..even he not going to do anything or stil holding ur hand.. bt i trust.. u heart wil accompany by my site all da way

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KcsuMryFjss

u re telling tat i m stil deep inside your heart....

"Now no le..2gether wif u no nid 2 worry bout anting...hapi n comfortable.i dun 1 delay le .if kip lik dis i wilk die faster"
"Reali so wso.. enla..i noe ..no 1 wil like u.. treat mi so gud T.t..Doin wat nw er.. hav ur dinner ad?at where?"
"Haix ..yalo.i Noe de..very hard de la..if i x nid 2 same cls wif him..i sure dare break wif him de..bt..i nid 2 face hime every day leh..how wor "
"Erm ..Cox yesterday tink dao alot ting mar..tink dao u...When talk ph wif u..u like ntg.. bt i noe i hurt dao u liao de.. very very sorry 2 u er..den u wan 2 go ghost hospital..i oso dunx how 2 advise u nt 2..cox i noe myself..reali very useless 2 u de.. yesterday in ph..u tell jo mi mani ting.. Haix all of it.. i oso put in my heart de "
"X la.. i wan 2 say de ting..i won ask u stop waiting or whatever de..cox i cant controlde mae.. jux wana tell u tat..while u r waiting.. in my heart ..alway gt u .."


in my phone.. there is alot ur mesage ..can say so all of it.. also from you.. i belive.. and i rather to trust on it.. because i noe tat.. beside i trust on u.. i ve nth can do else..i wil care everything of u.. worry bout you.. thinking of u.. just remember.. while suddenly u tink of mi.. just remember tat moment.. i m thinking and miss ya also at the same time.. " ....mayb sum day.v wil b bac d i trust^^" .. dear.. i trust it also.. i wil wait for da miracle happen in my life again.. just loving ya everyday every second~~